tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6569228.post-1087848675320833762004-06-21T13:03:00.000-07:002004-06-21T13:11:15.320-07:00I went and fellowshipped with the saints. It was great. While I was there, however, Sis Greer offered to test my blood sugar two hours after lunch. It was 444. It should have been 128 or so to be normal. This says that yes I do have diabetes. I realized that I am a food addict. I am doing something that is destroying me and I keep doing it. I used to be in Overeaters Anonymous, but the leader of my group was jealous of me. She made me Literature Chairperson, and immediately took away my job, said she would buy the literature when she was in Charlotte. <br />S sabotaged me in OA. I was abstinent and had lost lots of weight, and I looked good. She knew I liked M. She talked me into giving my story, even though I wasn’t ready for it. She said M would be there. Of course M wasn’t there. As soon as I gave my story it was like I lost all power to be abstinent. I think the next day was the day before Thanksgiving, and that was the day I lost my abstinence. I was searching for my Aunt’s house, and she had given very bad directions, and finally I got fed up and bought, then ate, something that I shouldn’t have. The next day I was around my family and my grandmother was pressuring me to eat breakfast even though I didn’t want to. The combination of all this was I lost my abstinence and left OA and the abuse of S. <br />Today I got back into OA. I have worked step one, and I have contacted a woman who was recommended to me as a sponsor. Waiting to hear back. I also went to an online OA meeting. I went to Walmart and looked at different water filtration systems, priced the replacement filters for each system. My son went to his first day of Xplaining Algebra summer course. We might go to the pool tonight. I am all freaked out, but I was thinking that the diabetes might be a blessing in disguise if it causes me to be abstinent again. <br />Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03112962231579162251noreply@blogger.com